The wait is over and I am happy but also sad.
A few months ago we were asked to consider a special needs baby. He had some issues we were not familiar with and really didn't know if we could handle. Many hospitalizations were ahead of this little guy and with three other little ones we weren't sure how to deal with everything.
After much prayer and thought we decided at this time it was too much for us. We also said, "let us know if he doesn't find a home soon."
So I prayed for him. Jake started this round of testing and was passing with flying colors. Although he still has delays there is a light at the end of the tunnel.
Baby's social worker came around again.
Maybe now we would be able to say yes. Once again earnest prayers were sent. Not only for us and baby but for the entire family. Lots of medical issues would make for an adjustment of schedules.
The answer at first was wait. So I waited. I prayed. I waited. I prayed.
Then a few nights ago Blake and I both agreed the answer was not now. We were both sad but knew it was right. When I got back in touch he had a new home!!!
Yes baby has a new home. I am so happy for him.
Sometimes the hardest part of waiting is not knowing. I know he will be fine now that he has "found" his family.
We are still not sure why we were told "not now" but all things will eventually work for the good.